For a while I bought into the whole, ‘We’ll keep in touch, we’ll talk everyday, I’ll come back for you in two years’ thing. He talked about it so often I sometimes actually imagined it. But the closer it does get the more it doesn’t feel like it’ll be okay, and it feels real. And reality isn’t on our side. And I know it’ll be fine eventually, but it’s starting to hurt a lot now. 

Selena Gomez is totally gorgeous. 

I have an obsession with floral.

Got Avery to watch Supernatural with me. Made my day.

Oh and Becky was pissing me off today. Mainly because I had to sit alone in Strings because I don’t have friends and that she kept throwing things at me and asking me stupid questions like “Drugs are bad right Sarah?” Shut up. Just shut up. You breathing in the same room makes me mad enough, I don’t need you talking to me too, especially when you’re joking about crap that makes me mad. 

Avery saying good bye to everyone was just ugh. Because I know I’m next. It’s only two months away and I’ll be busy most of July for 5 hours. Now would be a great time to stop pretending like it’s gonna go away.

I was stuck between being really happy and wanting to cry all night.

I can’t tell if today was good or bad.